“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”- Carl Jung
About to turn 46, I would believe at this point that I have learned quite a few things about life and human nature, all which I am grateful for and able to apply to my life on a daily basis. One of the reasons I was motivated to sit down and write “Reinvented: A Survivors Guide” was that I remember feeling just few years back, when I had achieved probably the best level of health and fitness in my life, how I would have bet I found the answer! Each day, was just a pillar in my belief system strengthening my foundation towards a healthy and active lifestyle. I thought there was absolutely no way, having learned what I learned, applied what I was applying, that I would ever result back to being out of shape and over weight again. Several years later, I can remember just thinking, “what the hell happened?”
Writing the book was a therapeutic journey for me to reflect back on the changes I had made in my life, and how creating these small successes in my life, and being grateful for all that my life had to offer me, helped develop my mindset to shed well over 30 pounds, and feel better about my physical and mental state than before. The hard part, was then having to dig into those memories and occurrences in my life that began to subtlety tear apart the fabric that had been woven in my life. Small stresses that I allowed to dominate my thoughts, and cultivated those beliefs until it grew into constant anxiety. Anxiety that soon had taken over my subconscious mind and the only way to alleviate moments was through alcohol. In combination with the reduced anxiety and stress, also reduced my ability to control my will. I found that during the day, I would eat healthy and stay motivated, until the mental laxative of alcohol soon let everything come out. I would be quick to anger, quick to explain everything that was wrong with society, and quick to eat whatever the frick I wanted. Slowly, that weight of 190lbs was over 200, then 210, then 220 and ultimately 230lbs of depressed and frustrated man.
I needed this though. Just last evening, sitting with my family for dinner, and my youngest son said to me, “dad, I like when you’re sober.” I wanted to first get up and dismiss myself, not from anger at my children, but from complete embarrassment. This was their father? I had let it get that bad? But hearing that, was just more confirmation of why I am doing this. For them. I know it will not be easy, and it will be a daily struggle, but I will replay his statement to me every second I can think of it. Which is what I explain in my book, and why I titled this post “No Guarantees” because in order achieve anything worth while in life, requires constant, consistent effort. Chances are, if something comes quickly, it will be gone just as quick. Reinvention, so to speak, occurs on a daily basis. We all wish we could hit that “reset” button and start over, but unfortunately, every day we face the world, we are going to be hit as hard as we are willing to push. This is why now when I see weight loss claims about “losing it and keeping it off” I am just like, “no, no, that is not how it works, sorry.” This reinvention has to occur everyday, and everyday you choose to pursue that goal, you must gather the strength to tackle that task. The greater the reward, the greater the resistance. I knew I had to change, and I knew the strength was building inside me, and I so badly wanted it to happen immediately, however, I wasn’t ready. The world still hadn’t prepared me to reinvent myself into the person I knew I should be. I still had to go through some more bumps and bruises.
I can still remember though, the day I woke up and said, “today is the day” and from that moment, I was like a fist of fury, obsessed with my outcome and the 21 Shred was how I was going to prove to myself that I still have the mental fortitude to pursue and persist. As I write this, completing 2 days of workouts, and 19 more to go, I am sore as you know what, but my passion is just growing stronger every second to prove to myself that I am one of the most persistent and mentally strong people I know. I have never accepted defeat easily, and I will look for every opportunity to turn a negative into a positive.
So my wish, during this journey, is to hopefully inspire, at the least, provide someone the encouragement that failure does not exist until accepted as such. I think Bruce Lee said that, but if there is something you want, you are going to have to go through walls, but if in your mind, you have already decided it has been accomplished, it now just a matter of time and consistent effort, and the Universe will decide when you are ready to receive. I would highly recommend that you download my 5 Steps To Manifestation on the sidebar if you are at a point in your life that you know you want and deserve more, but are not too sure how to get there. I put myself through this exercise, and this process is what connected my thoughts to the Universe and taught me how to listen. Once you listen, the Universe will align you with the people and the opportunities that will guide you to your desired outcome. THIS, I guarantee!!
I wish you health, happiness, and success in your days!